Why are weekends so short now? When has it
changed in that way? Why do I always ask so many questions when I write about
something?
I don’t know the answers but truly? I’m
quite disappointed with myself. I used to be active, spend whole days on
preparing materials and doing my homework just developing my skills but now I
can’t even focus on most important things.
When I feel quite sure about my
grammar skills in Spanish suddenly it comes out that there are many things
that I actually don’t know or forgot. I
hate the fact that I supposedly study what I love and I do what really
interests me but on the other hand I cannot say that I’m fully satisfied. I came here with some plans, new city, new
university, maybe new job? Yes, but later I found out that I neither couldn’t
study translation nor the language part of Spanish philology.
So I was forced
to study literature what ok let’s say I like it but not as much as I like other
things in Spanish. Now I feel like I’m starting to hate Spanish because the
only thing I have to do is reading reading and once more reading and sometimes
write some kind of essay about what I had read previously. I’m disappointed
because I thought it would be fun studying Spanish but now results that we
don’t have much practise but loads of theory instead.
So they say go and study what you really
love. I wouldn’t do that again. If you
love something don’t study it, because it will definitely kill your passion.
Quick update: It would be so unfair of me
saying that everything and everybody
will kill your passion at the University. There are some profs and
classes that are super interesting and motivating so I can say thank you and that I’m utterly
grateful for your input.
This sounds really bad :( I hope this was just a bad moment, and you're not so miserable any more. Don't let anyone dampen your enthusiasm for Spanish! Perhaps there are things you can do with other students rather than in class? Keep your chin up! :)
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